I've not been updating so much here because I've a test in a week and I have sooo much to studdy. Not going to bore you with telling you about how much it is or how much I'm longing to be done with all this and just relax... No, I'm just going to say that I hope you, my readers, will be back and read my blog when I will be more active and write more.

For now, just wish me good luck and God bless you.

I got pass the exam! My first exam ever. I'm so happy, so so so happy!! :D

As soon as I'm done with the next exam I will celebrate this. Happy!!

Hey.

This day has really been extraordinary, unfortunately not in a very good way.
We had laboratory from 8:00 - 16:30, and after that we had to write a couple of labreports. Thanks to my dad whom picked me up from school, because I was so tired and it was freezing! Still, I arrived home at eight. Dead. That's what I am now.

I know, in my calendar it says that I'm supposed to do a chapter in my chemistry book but hell no. Sorry for my choise of word, but today is not my day. I'll tell you why.

Firstly, at the laboratory, I splashed sodium hydroxide (NaOH) on my face. For you whom aren't into chemistry, I can tell you that it's corrosive, and it was 10M, which means very corrosive. I thank God that it wasn't so much so I could just wash it, but I really got scared.

Secondly, I wanted to know what one cup contained, so I (stupid me) smelled it. That was the most weird thing ever happening to me. I felt like my nose exploded! It was some diethylether, I don't know but never smell on it if you ever come across it!

Finaly, something went wrong in one of the procedures, so we had to stay longer and start over with one part, and it went wrong too. Gaah!!

Yeah, I'm just boring you, but I have to write down my feelings somewhere. My feelings about chemistry haha.

  

Often in life people complain. Always complaining about something. Like in Sweden, when it's cold people say "damn this country is sooo cold!" and when the summer comes, people have something to say about the hot of course. I'm not complaining about that, just telling the truth.

Also, when I discuss the existence of God with people (often non-believers), they usually use the argument "then why is it so much sorrow in this world?". Trials and tribulations are part of human life. Allah reminds us of this in the Qur'an. Let's look at one of the verses in the holy Quran.

"Be sure We [Allah] shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods or lives or the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere"

In life, you have to expect that there will be failure and there will be sorrow and loneliness. That's kind of the thing, you're living on the earth, still you haven’t reached the paradise. So why do people expect this world to be like a paradise with zero problems?

We're living a life, and yes it is only one life, but during this life we're not supposed to "live the life" as people often say, no. This life is a test, like when you have an exam. You have to show how good you are, so that you can be placed at the right place.

Some people might wonder why some people have a wonderful life when others suffer. I don't believe that anyone live a flawless life. And in the holy Quran you can read that it's those who suffer and have a hard life that will have the best after life, during an eternity. Does that sound bad to you?

Once at school, we had a discussion during religion-class. One of the atheists asked my teacher a question that I answered him on.
"If God is fair and merciful, then why does he not let all the people in to the paradise? Why is there a hell?"

My answer was the following:
"Would you call God fair and merciful if he let everyone in t the paradise? Even the murders and the betrayers? Because how fair would that have been when some people, during their lives, had been patient and kind and got the same reward as the murders?"
He did not answer that, as anticipated.

If you're an honest and loving human, would you like to live an eternity with a human without a heart? That's why there is a paradise and a hell.

Remember that if you show God how good you are, then you can expect the best after life.

Sitting her, studdying organic chemistry, I'm looking at my new book that I ordered from Bokus a couple of weeks ago. I finished reading the book "The vampire diaries" yesterday so today I can begin with "Dear John".

"The vampire diaries" has a series of books but I don't have them yet so while waiting for them I can read this. My friend recomended the book and said that she loved it. I've only heard good things about Nichols Sparks books so why not read one so that I'll have my own opinion about the book.

Have you read this book? What did you think about it?

My own diary, kind of, but on the net. I write about me, about school and about life in general. What I can tell now to begin with is that I'm a girl (or shall I say young woman?) at the age of 19, studdying at a universe in Sweden and will probably (hopefully..) become a farmacevt in less than five years.

Why do I choose to write in english then? Easy, it sounds better and in the bargain I do actually develope my english. I can speake swedish, of course, since I've been living here for more than 14 years. And if you wish to comment my posts, you can do it in swedish or english, it doesn't matter to me.

P.S. you don't need to have bad conscience about reading this diary. I won't tell you what you're not allowed to know anyway.